On August 10th 2020, World Lion Day, our little baby Leo was born sleeping.
I know many might not understand my sharing of such a personal thing, but to me Leo was perfect, and I want the world to know he existed.
He was 8 pounds and 3 ounces, 50cm long and a healthy little baby. Maybe he loved to dance as much as his mama but unfortunately, he got himself in a bit of a tangle, and the cord wrapped round his neck 3 times. We will never truly know or understand what happened. Our baby should have been left to sleep peacefully after passing, but unfortunately, he suffered further trauma during the labour as his little face and nose was first and didn’t turn during the hours of contractions. Finally, he was born by c-section and delivered by the kindest midwife who stayed hours beyond her nightshift to see him come into this world personally.
‘A thousand years’ came on the classical playlist in the theatre, and I am told everyone in there was emotional and crying. He was different and special.
Lockdown will always be the most special time of my life. He changed my life forever and it will never be the same again.
My body has gone from full mummy-mode to totally empty, and I suppose sharing him with the world lets me know it was real. I really did feel the weight of my beautiful baby boy on my chest as I hugged and kissed him.
We spent one peaceful night as a family together and I held the hands of both my boys for the very first and last time. The best night of my life.
Waking up to his even colder and harder body was incredibly difficult, but to me Leo is perfect, and I will love him for a thousand years xx 🦁🧡
RIP angel I miss you x
By Holly Keast – Mother to Leo Wilder Keast
Here, Holly shares her stillbirth story – Losing Leo